It feels as if I'm missing something, but couldn't quite put my finger on it. Perhaps I already know what is missing, but it's being unconsciously blocked by grave denial.

Here's the playlist, before I wax philosophical (24-song playlist. This serves as warning).

1.   16 - Green Day

2.   I Was There - Green Day

3.   Stuck in a Moment You Can't Get Out Of - U2

4.   Time - Hootie & The Blowfish

5.   Wasting My Time - Default

6.   Semi-Charmed Life - Third Eye Blind

7.   It Sucks To Be Me - Avenue Q

8.   Over My Head - Lit

9.   Under Pressure - Queen

10. Burnout - Green Day

11. Landslide - Smashing Pumpkins

12. King of Pain - Sting

13. Everybody Hurts - R.E.M.

14. Regret - New Order

15. You Get What You Give - New Radicals

16. Long View - Green Day

17. Narcolepsy - Third Eye Blind

18. It's The End Of The World - R.E.M.

19. Looking For A Place to Land - Dakota Moon

20. Calling Out - Curt Smith

21. This Time Around - Hanson

22. Ordinary World - Duran Duran

23. Blue Sky - Hale

24. Walk On - U2

It is rather surprising to find four Green Day songs there, I'm supposed to be over those angst-y rants. Not that I'm angry, depressed, on drugs, suicidal or anything ... far from all that actually. Perhaps I could best describe it as feelings of melancholy, like a dark cloud hanging over, or a guillotine, waiting for the shit to hit the fan. I know it's coming, I just don't know when or what it is.

I have to figure out what this singular thing is. This "unnamed unknown thing" has been hovering over me for almost five years, if it were a human being it would be walking and talking now. Maybe I should go and ask what it wants...

And yes, what do you do with a BA in English (or a BS in Architecture)?